This is how i really feel in the inside...(for you too mum..)

I've had it..i dont deserve this life,this year really is fucked up..im leaving,its obvious you cant handle me anymore,you dont care anymore,club most of the night,what has happened to you?your not the mum i used to be love by.Do you even know how i feel?i bet not,no one really knows how i feel or even care.I dont have a family,after today's quarrel than i went out,i was crying on my way.All i want is you to understand me,know what i need,feel what i feel.Your my flesh and blood yet pointless when you dont know anything bout me...no one understands me or how i feel,even my brotherz,even though the brothership is still there...all of you dont really know me... have not spoken how i felt like this before,i kept it all in my heart till it hurts so bad..i lost a love one...i lost a family..i almost everything,but even if my brotherz were there for me,do they know whats bringing me down?nah,im going to leave for 1month,till you get yourself back together mum,the way you treat me,i HATE it,not you but your ways.Im troubling you anws,i dont need any cash,somedays i will be at one of my fwen's house,i'l find a job for the mean time,im filled with so much pain..i will be home only in the noon when my mum goes to work,i need to still feed ola,my only precious..please try to stay away from me,i hate it when im at this condition..fwens only can contact me,not my so called family..